Swallow the Ocean

I read about something called urge surfing. It's about not letting your emotions control you. You watch them rise and fall like waves in the ocean. I thought how that might be good for me. But then I imagined the waves and what removing myself from them might look like. I would spend a life lived from the sand. Watching the waves of my life rise and fall, over and over again, until it was over.

I cannot watch my life unfold.

I wish to swim in it. Grab my swimsuit, surf board, and go. Take away my legs and make me a fish so that I may soak up every drop. Ride each glorious wave, one at a time, until its great white crash. I will swallow the ocean whole as it swallows me.